Here Comes the Freight Train

By all accounts, I should not be blogging right now.

It’s irresponsible.

It’s not thought out.

I have way too many things that I should be doing.

I sit here typing in a half empty bedroom. The furniture is all in place, including a messy, unkempt bed, but all the knick-knacks, all the books, all the pictures, all the mementos…are gone.

The closets are empty.

The bathroom drawers and cabinets are bare.

Boxes are strewn through the hall.

Tonight is my last night in this house before I pack up all my earthly belongings into a moving truck and watch my husband drive off with them to Tennessee.

Clearly, I should be packing right now, packing to start a new life. This new life is right around the corner and is about to hit me like a ton of bricks. A new job for my husband starting on Tuesday. A new job for me starting in January. A new preschool for my daughter, and a new elementary school for my son.

My future is a freight train bearing down on me with frightening speed and intensity.

And…I’m actually excited about it. I truly believe the reason I am sitting in the half-empty house that I once thought would be my home forever is because of Jesus. I believe it is due to God’s will that my family finds itself in this crazy transition, one that was most certainly not of our choosing, but one that we have come to embrace. This change, I firmly believe, is the culmination of years of growing, searching, praying, studying and otherwise trying to figure out what it means to be a citizen of the Kingdom of God.

And so, I think it is fitting that I start a blog that pursues that very subject at this seemingly inconvenient time. The Kingdom has made many demands on my life lately, and I know that the demands will continue, as we choose what school our son should attend, as we choose the level of my family’s involvement in my husband’s new ministry, as we choose how to best glorify God through our Christmas celebrations, as we choose how to restructure our various budgets, and the list goes on. In the midst of all that restructuring–and hopefully far beyond this initial transition phase–I believe I need a space to specifically explore what it means to live fully in God’s Kingdom. I hope to share more about our journey as time goes on, and also to gain insight and advice from fellow Kingdom-seekers as we all try to live as aliens and strangers in this world.

I am excited for what the future holds, both for my family, and for this blog.

Now, if you will excuse me, I have some boxes to pack…

4 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by Molly on October 28, 2011 at 3:47 pm

    What a beautiful platform to explore your deepest passion. I’m excited about continuing to share in your journey despite the physical distance between us. I’ll be there, cup of coffee in hand, eager to hear your insightful and inspiring thoughts as always!


  2. Sounds wonderful. I can’t wait.


  3. you go girl! love ya!


  4. Posted by Jill on October 29, 2011 at 2:12 am

    Love it! Happy moving week!!


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